Make it work time.

Something I forgot 2 post 2 days ago:

This is difficult. I am hitting a wall again. I hate hitting a wall. But you know ... looking back it's hitting those walls and then managing my way past them that have made me acquire the skills I have today. So ... it's maybe not a bad thing that I am hitting these walls.

I started writing my intro and its all good and I managed to squeeze out my first 1000 words and it sounds pretty solid - obviously there are still holes and citations missing here and there, but the basic text is down, now I move to part 2 where I need to write my next I don't know .. ideally less than 1000 words and I am stuck. There seems to be a fine line between the concept I want to write about and another concept which I will write about in part 3. Research isn't particularly explicit nor is there that much out there on this particular thing, which is also annoying. It's confusing. I wanna make sure it sufficiently critically analyzed and I then obviously panic - not badly, but I worry and then I end up wanting to write about it all at once, which would make me lose my red thread and that's no good.

Yesterday someone said to me [unrelated to this, but yet very relevant] that I always try to do 500 things at once, when I should just focus on one thing get it done and move on. I remember I used to do that very well and I think it is KEY in this thesis writing procedure. The examiner probably doesn't want to read a messy thesis, but one that has a CLEAR RED THREAD. I need to get back to basics and I know that ... but in order to do that, I need to understand the concepts and I can't when I can't find enough research.

I suppose I need to make it work as Tim Gunn always says, but its easier said than done. 

Additionally, I have been collecting data like mad, which is good, because I then have everything I need to finish writing my thesis. Simultaneously, I need to get this intro done and I am the sort to hover in front of my lap top for hours without distractions to get my brain to create this beautiful story thats coherent and what not and I can't do that when I have to collect data at the same time ... hence still no intro for me for now. This is freaking me out.